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Hapiness, Meaning and Personal Ethics

Throughout the course of human history, people have battled and pondered the meaning of life, the definition of happiness, and some sort of tangible way to quench this thirst to understand existence, and what the point of it all is. The happiness and meaning project seeks to explore these questions that we all have to come to a place of self reflection and a cohesive understanding about each student’s individual perspective. Throughout this project we analyzed literature, film, art, and many other types of media to seek more understanding about how other humans define their own personal philosophies. I have always thought so deeply about why I exist, so this project was a beautiful yet tragic thing to explore because I always find that I can never come to a true answer. For my project I decided to write a song about my constant state of existential crisis.

 

Over the course of this project I had to directly confront these fears and ideas and wonderful philosophies blooming inside of me constantly. I explored the nature of the universe and how it behaves in depth to recognize patterns that I believe hold significance in the scheme of the universe. My philosophy of life can go a million different directions with a million different emotional connotations depending on what I decide to consider in any given moment. I find myself swaying between a feeling of insignificance, this feeling that I am a strand in an infinitely immense and constantly regenerating but beautifully melodic harp, and this feeling of divine importance, that there is a reason to every breath I take and every thought that crosses my chaotic mind. It is so desperately hard for me to be at peace with the state of the world and the universe and my place in all of that. It’s hard for me to accept the fate of me being a spec of dust in an eternal beach of endless waves crashing and reshaping and reforming these little pieces of mountains and valleys. It’s hard for me to accept the fate of me being divine, me being god, me creating my own reality intentionally and fatefully influencing eternity. Am I eternity? Or am I a result of a complex equation curling towards infinity. I’ll never be sure.

 

As I continue to grow, I hope to gain more and more peace in understanding that I may never understand. I hope to enjoy the beauty and the wonder and ponder the strange intricacy and interconnectivity of being alive. I hope to embrace the void, bathe in the void, and make the void my swimming pool. Maybe one day I will transcend this physical reality and be able to access the harddrive of life in itself.

Sometimes

Feeling insignificant

Is so desperately lonely

So desperately heartbreaking

I'm so desperately small

I'm so desperate

My words

Favorite movies

Tears

My passions

Fears

Will dissapear

Into the void

The void is all consuming

Ever threatening

Impossibly destined

Eternally messing with my head

Making me wonder

Making me question

Could this really be

All there is?

~ An excerpt from the outro on my EP

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